- I've been tagged for that 25 Things meme so many times I have a bruise.
- 25 seems like a whole lot to me, a hell of a whole of a lot.
- Thinking about these 25 Things (whatever they might be) I just ignored my cat long enough that she had to jump onto my shoulder. Good thing I am wearing a loose jacket and we clip her claws, that's all I can say. She did this because having me rub her face is not optional. I frequently remark that it's a wonder she has any fur left on her head. She must spend a lot of her boundless energy growing more. Okay, this isn't really about me.
- Much of the time I feel incredibly lucky about my life. I also feel that we create our own luck, but only after a certain point. I'm well aware there are people born into situations where they have no resources to make luck out of.
- Other times I feel put-upon.
- I'm more of an extreme introvert than anyone would think. Sometimes I feel agoraphobic.
- I'm a pantheist, and yes that means I think that things like rocks are alive. I pray, but not to God.
- I'm also a Romantic.
- These things may not be news to anyone. They sometimes embarrass me, though. Sometimes I want to be tough and cynical-and sometimes I am--but secretly I think I'm happier than most cynics and that's okay with me. I also secretly think cynicism is easy and boring. Attitude gets old. I confess that much of my recent poetry is wry, though.
- I used to be an incredible literary snob. I still am, a little.
- I still am embarrassed by the art on most spec fic. I hate carrying it around and having it in my house.
- I am drawn to intensity: in friends, in music, in fiction.
- Unfortunately, I have learned to my dismay that intensity in people often correlates to the kind of craziness that includes being abusive to friends--I learnt that lesson the hard way, and have had to extricate myself from several friendships because of it. They haunt me.
- People think that because I have a lot of books and CDs that I have broad tastes. I don't. My tastes are quite narrow, but I like to say deep. That's an excuse.
- Listening to music I don't like makes me feel angry, or sometimes sick. That's why I can't listen to music radio or anthologies. I don't understand how other people can. It's hard for me to visit some people and places because of the music they play. Sometimes I can screen it out; sometimes I can't.
- I also don't understand how people can read things they don't like. It upsets me. So when someone tells me it's good to read out of your comfort zone, I get sad because it makes me too crazy to do it.
- This makes me a narrow person. I probably have some choice about this, but I don't feel like I do.
- I am addicted to reading. I was the kind of kid who read the cereal box in front of me. The internet is a terrible thing for a person like me.
- I have a horrible memory. I have lost many little chunks of my life.
- I hate routine things, like showering, because there's so much involved in it: washing, shaving, moisturizing, cleaning the shower. I wish I could go through an automatic shower that would do it for me. That's probably why I can't be bothered with make-up.
- I never feel like I belong to any group--I always feel peripheral in any gathering. I've begun to suspect this might be intentional. It's certainly inveterate.
- This extends to nationality, too. I'm not an American, but I've been out of Canada for so long I'm no longer really Canadian, either. I haven't voted since 1988. Or was it 1987. When we lived in London, Ontario. That was the last time I could.
- I used to use the word "inveterate" to test dictionaries, because the first time I came across it in T.S. Eliot the first dictionary I looked in didn't have it. I haven't found another that didn't though.
- I will spend way more money than I should on books and music, but I do everything I can to squeeze out the last drop of toothpaste.
- Wow, 25. It wasn't as bad as I thought. Because I am lazy,I thought it would be a lot harder than it was.
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