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08 February 2009 @ 08:37 pm
Les Semaines February 8, 2008: Twenty-Five Confessions  

  1. I've been tagged for that 25 Things meme so many times I have a bruise.

  2. 25 seems like a whole lot to me, a hell of a whole of a lot.

  3. Thinking about these 25 Things (whatever they might be) I just ignored my cat long enough that she had to jump onto my shoulder. Good thing I am wearing a loose jacket and we clip her claws, that's all I can say. She did this because having me rub her face is not optional. I frequently remark that it's a wonder she has any fur left on her head. She must spend a lot of her boundless energy growing more. Okay, this isn't really about me.

  4. Much of the time I feel incredibly lucky about my life. I also feel that we create our own luck, but only after a certain point. I'm well aware there are people born into situations where they have no resources to make luck out of.

  5. Other times I feel put-upon.

  6. I'm more of an extreme introvert than anyone would think. Sometimes I feel agoraphobic.

  7. I'm a pantheist, and yes that means I think that things like rocks are alive. I pray, but not to God.

  8. I'm also a Romantic.

  9. These things may not be news to anyone. They sometimes embarrass me, though. Sometimes I want to be tough and cynical-and sometimes I am--but secretly I think I'm happier than most cynics and that's okay with me. I also secretly think cynicism is easy and boring. Attitude gets old. I confess that much of my recent poetry is wry, though.

  10. I used to be an incredible literary snob. I still am, a little.

  11. I still am embarrassed by the art on most spec fic. I hate carrying it around and having it in my house.

  12. I am drawn to intensity: in friends, in music, in fiction.

  13. Unfortunately, I have learned to my dismay that intensity in people often correlates to the kind of craziness that includes being abusive to friends--I learnt that lesson the hard way, and have had to extricate myself from several friendships because of it. They haunt me.

  14. People think that because I have a lot of books and CDs that I have broad tastes. I don't. My tastes are quite narrow, but I like to say deep. That's an excuse.

  15. Listening to music I don't like makes me feel angry, or sometimes sick. That's why I can't listen to music radio or anthologies. I don't understand how other people can. It's hard for me to visit some people and places because of the music they play. Sometimes I can screen it out; sometimes I can't.

  16. I also don't understand how people can read things they don't like. It upsets me. So when someone tells me it's good to read out of your comfort zone, I get sad because it makes me too crazy to do it.

  17. This makes me a narrow person. I probably have some choice about this, but I don't feel like I do.

  18. I am addicted to reading. I was the kind of kid who read the cereal box in front of me. The internet is a terrible thing for a person like me.

  19. I have a horrible memory. I have lost many little chunks of my life.

  20. I hate routine things, like showering, because there's so much involved in it: washing, shaving, moisturizing, cleaning the shower. I wish I could go through an automatic shower that would do it for me. That's probably why I can't be bothered with make-up.

  21. I never feel like I belong to any group--I always feel peripheral in any gathering. I've begun to suspect this might be intentional. It's certainly inveterate.

  22. This extends to nationality, too. I'm not an American, but I've been out of Canada for so long I'm no longer really Canadian, either. I haven't voted since 1988. Or was it 1987. When we lived in London, Ontario. That was the last time I could.

  23. I used to use the word "inveterate" to test dictionaries, because the first time I came across it in T.S. Eliot the first dictionary I looked in didn't have it. I haven't found another that didn't though.

  24. I will spend way more money than I should on books and music, but I do everything I can to squeeze out the last drop of toothpaste.

  25. Wow, 25. It wasn't as bad as I thought. Because I am lazy,I thought it would be a lot harder than it was.

For my listening, reading, and writing updates, see Les Semaines.
Sherwood Smithsartorias on February 9th, 2009 05:26 am (UTC)
That was cool.
Neile Grahamneile on February 9th, 2009 11:38 pm (UTC)
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Neile Grahamneile on February 9th, 2009 11:40 pm (UTC)
Isn't it weird? I will even use up stuff I don't like. I am often critical of my husband because he goes through toothpaste and shampoo so quickly, while he doesn't spend as much on books or music as I do, and he's at least as addicted to them as I am--though he doesn't read as quickly as I do.
timalynetimalyne on February 9th, 2009 02:26 pm (UTC)
Many on your list struck chords with me, particularly intensity, cats, books, groups, make up and toothpaste
Neile Grahamneile on February 9th, 2009 11:44 pm (UTC)
There's this great piece by Lorca on the spirit of duende--the passion that inhabits flamenco dancers--and poetry. I read it at a formative age. Well, I felt that way before that, but the recognition was so strong. Often one of my greatest criticisms of a book was that it was passionless (obviously I don't care whether or not it's a small-r romance, just that it has a passion for/about something).
A.kaiweilau on February 9th, 2009 03:30 pm (UTC)
I didn't know you were a Canadian! Where have I been?
Neile Grahamneile on February 9th, 2009 11:36 pm (UTC)
You've been in Japan, silly!
mcjuliemcjulie on February 9th, 2009 04:37 pm (UTC)
That was cool. I will commiserate wholeheartedly on #18. I sometimes describe myself as a "compulsive" reader.
Neile Grahamneile on February 9th, 2009 11:37 pm (UTC)
I should be writing now, and look what I'm doing.